I am living with sorrow and fear these days. I tried all my best not to show my true feelings whenever my friends or people I know are around. But i bet I failed in hiding...
The worst moment was I cried in front of my landlady yesterday night.
So the story ended there?..
After that incident, which is starting from today..I have to find a solution to erase all the unhappiness and uncertainties I have been facing so far.
This happens to me.. When I am sad, I tend to remember most of the bad memories I have in the past and I think future is such a long and unseen journey.
So, I am depressed most of the nights, cried mostly every nights..
This is not due to I am feeling lonely but I couldn't accept what I am facing right now.
Mainly is because of my housemate. She is making me insane, crazy and depress! It's a very long long long story, longer than those drama my grandmama watches all the time.
I am not gong to mention again because it sounds complaining for me and trying to escape from problems and hide myself again. I don't want to!
From today onwards, I promise myself and my best friends that I will be happy and of course pursue what I needed as well as STOP being pessimistic even if the sky is falling down. It wont happen right? Therefore, it won't be difficult as my assignments and exams and other issues.
I will take it as life experience, god is giving me lessons about life. What's life to you?
There's only one problem bothering me right now is that whether should I move out from my current house or not. I sincerely like this area, like this house and my room. After survived for a sem in this house, i have create a familiar atmosphere yet because of one reason, my housemate, I feel like moving out. What is the next step for me?
Should I stay in somewhere else?
What are your opinions?
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